bit by bit, i woke up. the ironic thing was that my own desire to learn more about the roots led me on to much bigger, older things. there is only so much i could read before i started coming across outside, non-traditional sources and materials, which is where the perspective came from, which led to altered ways of viewing things. once i started rotating the lenses through which i could view what was happening, including combinations of, or a complete lack of, whole new insights would develop.

imagine if you are sitting in a chair at the optometrist. they pull the optical refractor over you and start flipping through the different lenses. imagine if every switch fundamentally altered the image you were seeing. now imagine instead of lenses, you are switching ideologies, belief systems, religious truths in accordance with their accepted histories, political standings, paranoid conspiracy theories, and a hundred different concepts of enlightenment. every time you switch the lens, you see the world as someone who experiences the world through that lens. that viewpoint, or perspective.

instead of a board with different sized letter/number combinations, you are looking at the very fabric of existence.


// and it clicked "nobody even knows what they are saying,
these people are just going through the motions. they all sound
asleep, like zombies."
// that was the beginning of the end i think
\\ it is folly to subject children to that
// it is indeed
\\ and dangerous

.exordium